I wore a really pretty dress to work today. It is kind of vintage looking, so I put on my awesome mother-of-pearl clip earrings. I felt a bit like my beautiful grandma, may she rest in peace. Someone said I looked nice, nicer than I have in a long time. It didn’t make me happy. I cried.

When you finally decide to lose weight, it is a hard journey. Lots of ups and downs and insecurities. Knowing how I look to the world is so different than how I feel inside.

I understand why people want a quick fix. But that just derails the process of finding health and learning that food is a fuel, not a crutch. I am staying the course, not giving up. Like everyone else on this journey, some days we just have to be reminded that there is gold at the end of the rainbow.